Angels..

After selling ads Leah, Beffer & I were starving
So we stop to treat ourselves for some nice Darios.
While getting my drink I see a little girl beside of me pouring tea just as beffer did she looked about 11
She was wearing her softball clothes , blonde hair ,her eyes were big and blue & looking at her then Beffer back and fourth
It was as if I was the mirror that separated the years of one person.
"Do you play softball?"-Me
"Yes!That's where I'm going RIGHT NOW.. My grandpas making me pitch.."-Her
"Wow Jess, did you hear that her grandpa is making her pitch"-Me
"I have to pitch BEFORE every practice...but oh well"-Her

We go back to our table and I say Jessica you should go talk to her it'll help that's you all over again ..
"She wont listen, I wouldn't have listened..."
"God gives us moments so we can take advantage of them you never know what sticks to a person , you never know what stays engraved in their mind.." -Me

So there we go up to her while she waits for her order

"Do y'all fight a lot?"-Beffer
"Oh yeah!! but he says it's for the best to practice a lot that it'll help me in the long run"-Her
"Listen to every word he says I promise I know what I'm talking about don't ever take him for granted"-Beffer
"He says I'll get a scolarship if I keep going with all I got ..I guess he's right .. I just think he's too hard on me"-Her
"I know what you mean my grandpa used to tell me the same things...but you'll find your way, you will learn girl"-Beffer

Beffers grandpa just past a way and talking to this little girl sent her to a world she wished she could re live.
"Nat, I wish I could have said more but I would have just started crying.If that was me I would tell her that one day she was going to wish she was on that field one more time with her grandpa yelling at her. I would tell her that in a few years a boy will steal her heart but to never forget what she's worth, because there is nothing more beautiful than a girl who sticks up for herself. I'd tell her that in a few years she was going to meet a girl named Nathallie and to immediately make  friends with her and not waste a year because that's going to be her best friend. & that she may not know it now but she's going to wish she could breathe that easily all over again.."

Oh I believe that often times we forget that Angels roam everywhere... <3

Bring me anything that brings you glory.

How did everything go from such a great summer to this..

Junior year was not suppose to start this way.
I'm not sure how but I'm determined to make it better.
Brighter days are coming,
The world didn't place joy in my heart, so it has no right to try and take it away.

If I have to I will  literally pick my best friend up and put her back together.
My infected eye will heal.
I will focus on school & actually listen to what's going on with out drifting off.
I will help my mom coach the little team like every year & not make it sound like something I "have to do"
I will start eating right & running again.
I will sleep at night peacefully
I will wake up earlier & not be in such a rush
I will start writing again.
I will be in a better mood.
I will pray more.
I will try harder.
I will seek the lord.
Because I have so much to look forward to...
I've never been known as a girl who is ever sad...
"Maybe since my life was changed long before these rainy days."        
                                                             Dont give up on me Junior year.
                                                                  It's just the beginning.

Why don't you stay...

Summer why don't you stay?

Just a little longer ..

What's the rush?



Use your vocal chords.

This battle started out

Satan with what is mine

Picture this

the scenery is in my room

Even if it's the last place I’d want it to be

A bad presence lingers around me

& I hear the voice of Lucifer

"You cannot defeat me"

But I ask dear God  what is this?

Then the angles in my room appeared

They handed me a Harp

& said "Play it under the grace of God"

& there I play my Harp

under the holy spirit

Angels appear & appear

through the test I was in

And I was in the glory using my Harp as defense

Suddenly I look at my hands and I realize

My harp disappeared..

The Angel of the lord spoke

"These are spiritual battles, harps of strings are not needed, use your vocal chords because something starts to happen when you praise God with your voice , the chains shatter. Oh when you praise God with your voice you will receive a whole new anointing "

Iglesia Suena tu arpa Fosforito.


So I tell you
use your voice in the mist of the battle
Let your tongue unravel the word of God
for it is your defense


When God is in the room
remember the enemy is just on the other side


I knew running back to God
would create a spiritual battle
A battle that I know I've already won


A spiritual battle is when you pray and your distracted by a noise
A spiritual battle is when you try to be filled by glory and the feeling of loneliness comes a long.
When you praise God and suddenly you feel like you can't anymore
When the bad dreams attack you at night even after you've prayed
When on one side you know theres God but when on the other side the enemy is wanting to drag you back in with every recourse , every weakness.
but ...
Fight.Fight. Fight
Fight with your voice.




Your most powerful tool
Your most glorious Harp
is your vocal chord.

Something else.

"There has to be something else out there for me

There is a world out there & it's waiting for me"

Define "else" Nat?

Else. As in not this , not here, not them, beyond, far fetch,wonders, exploration,freedom.

Ahh but your 16. You should be appreciating all that you're blessed with....

 I understand.

Just let me dream wise one , let me dream.

As much as I love this place

As much memories that it's givin me

As much lessons as its taught me

it can't teach me what this wild unstoppable heart wants to learn.

I've been out & about this summer,

hoping to find myself somewhere.

What I found out was that

I keep wanting to fill this void,

but this town just wont do.

My dream has to be out there

He has to be out there.

There has to be something out there.

Something else.

Someone else.

I ran in to Jesus & the encounter with him
settled my heart but triggered my spirit to do far greater things...

greater things beyond the sight I have of my future at the moment..

I have a mind set and an itch to explore far to big for this county.

There HAS to BE something else out there for me.

God gave me this free spirit

Now what I need is patience

Patience to not get too ahead of myself

Patience to not wish my life here away

Uuuhhh--hhuuuuuuh uuhhhh huuuuuuu.

BREATHE NATHALLIE. BREATHE.

"Greater things are yet to come, greater things are still to be done"

I've wanted to come closer to God whole heartily for about a year now.
I lost my way & couldn't find myself back.
My reuniting with God believe it or not started about 2 weeks ago while we
were on a school year book field trip . It was 1 a.m & these lovely ladies and I snuck out of the hotel to see
drunk guys play guitar.. (yeah.sounds just like me,so you probably do believe it)

The conversation of God came out of no where I had never told anyone how I felt exactly about being so trapped & even now it takes a trim to my pride to say that I wasn't going the right way despite of my talk & effort.
The moment I let it out of my mouth I got chills , I'm talking those hair stand up whatsgoingon with my body chills. I started crying & I turn to Abby & she was crying too. Right then & there I felt God .I've wanted to feel that for ever now the sec I admitted to needing him to others is the sec I felt him..
Abby said "That was God inviting you back in"


Then she told me about camp.
I spent the most amazing 5 days ever.

This is what I needed.
This is where I found peace,
where I found people who understood me.
Where my chains slowly started to undo themselves from my body.

A lot of hearts were saved
& like mine were reunited with God.
I can say that I love this place.
I can say that it came for my rescue.

I may not have it all together still
but it's to late for the devil
because the healing has already begun.

Ember Worship;
Crazy crazy boys.
They use their talent to serve the lord
& they really are inspiring!
I loveeee loveee lovee them!
P.s. I was their first autograph.. score! ;)

Matt Chewning.
He is dope.. (:
I pray that God continues to use him in wonderful ways.
The man has done great things & I can't wait to see where God will take him next.
Here is his blog: http://chewningjourney.blogspot.com/2011/08/on-my-way-back.html/

& to all my Sba Friends, I love you allllll!
You guys are truly amazing
"One week friendships my butt, you're staying in my life"