My math paper is currently soaked in tears. I NEVER CRY. If you have seen me cry, I applaud you, you saw something out of me. If I cry, it has to really be getting to me. I suck at math. Maybe just as bad or even worse than I do at biology. I was not crying because I could not do it, because I know I can, but because it's so simple and yet I get confused randomly, imagine when the hard stuff starts kicking it... Math just is not my thing, then again I feel like nothing is "my thing" I hate it, hate it, hate it.
Not only school is dragging my soul around like dirt but also just life in general. There is a void in me, that no matter what I do I cannot fill it. It’s like a hole in the middle of the desert, no amount of water can seem to fill it because not enough falls from the sky. I plead for God to give me rain.
Simply Rain. Rain that has love, true friendships, determination, Independence, self-esteem, beauty, sincere hearts, pure , clean, extravagant rain .
I want people who will love me, like I love them. You know. I would do anything in the world for some people, even though I have realized they would not do the same for me. Sometimes, you just want someone to ask YOU whats wrong, you want someone to pray for rain with you, to talk about this lonley void of yours. I think, I'm questioning every single person, every single relationship I have. I want this rain to contain no doubt. I want no doubt in me. Rain. Rain. Rain.
God, Give me Rain.
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