I love Jackie.

And suddenly I had a change of thought, I'm so bipolar.
It pretty much goes like this..
Cool, chill ,it's  straight. I don't care how single I am then the lonely feeling that I
described in a previous post comes along.[&] It's a cycle.
Now, with out even a trace to know how I did it.
I had a change.
I don't care.
I'm not lonely. I know I never truly was but it was the emotion of it that felt strangling to me.
It's gone now.
& I hope this just isn't temporary and just isn't part of the cycle. This is what I wanted to just be free from feelings because
at the end loneliness is a feeling.
I don't feel the "I wanna be in love"
It just... went. away...
the thought of having someone sounded "nice" ...remember?. Now it doesn't sound too appealing
like it did.
Maybe there is just too many things to do.
Please please please let it be that I'm finally "Letting go [&] letting God"
interesting. very interesting..

Explanation for my Title: I love my friend Jackie. Who had heard me say "I'm lonely" so many times.[&] she finally heard the magical words "I don't feel lonely anymore" after all this time. She talked to me till weee hours of the night [&] honestly if it wasn't for her..I don't know who I'd be right now.