Like you know something is happening that's slowly, with no sound, starting to change you. You don't know if you want it to.However, it's almost as if natures taking its course in a frantic way. And you know for the first time, for the very first time in your life there will now be a before and an after, a was and a will be & you will never be the same. You begin to grow friendships with yourself because somewhere in the back of your mind, you've always known that people change, and people leave. What was a fuzzy thought that you ignored because you were too afraid to face, turned into events where you sat puzzled as you watched people you thought were there till the old wrinkly age go like balloons. Where you watched friends & lovers disappear into strangers right in front of your eyes and you can't say stay and you can't say go, your unwillingness to do either leaves you there drowned in confusion.
Suddenly, for me, all that confusion turned in to a form of change.
A smooth independence rising from failure relationships. It's quite alright to not have a best friend anymore & it's quite alright to not trust anyone completely. It's quite alright that after all this time you realized that all your hard work was used to build walls instead of bridges. It's quite alright if your feelings for him never went away.
It's okay to be hurt but don't let your body adjust to pain always remember it's also okay, to be okay It's perfectly fine to wake up one day and look in the mirror and say who I use to be, can't even wipe the dust off the firm feet of who I am now.
If you're blessed to find those God given people that he hand picked, treasure them.
Just never depend on anyone to make you feel complete.
Don't struggle, don't stress, if they stay God bless them if they go God bless them even more.
