...&then I made a 57.

 My week wasn't exactly a rain of joy..
The worst part was when
I looked down at my 6 weeks test and BAMM
my test grade for AP US read 57..
half the class was about to either A.jump freeman or B.Jump out the window andthrow themselves in front of a moving vehicle.

(Mr.Freeman said it was not that terrible in the AP Language , which is still currently foreign to me)
However.. I came home to read this lovely email that just cranked the levy in my heart a little higher than where it originally was, which was in my stomach with all this disappointment.

The oh so gracious email.

 Reasons why I love Nathallie Lynette Chavez (you)…

1.      Your smile. Your smile is contagious. When I see you smiling, I can’t stop myself from smiling back. You light up whatever room you’re in and make everyone around you happy.

2.      You are a hopeless romantic. For a cynical realist like myself, your attitude towards love is refreshing, to say the least. I love how you think that there is someone in the world for everyone. I love that you never give up on love and are willing to help anyone find it (but yourself…)

3.      That look on your face when you think no one’s watching you. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve looked at you to find you staring intensely at whoever’s talking like your trying to see through them to their soul. You’ll just stand there, chewing on your lip until someone snaps you back to reality. It’s adorable.

4.     


Your laugh. You have the most distinctive laugh I have ever heard. Being the creepy stalker friend that I am… I can recognize your laugh and know that it’s you before I even see you.

5.      You are opinionated, steadfast in your beliefs, and sometimes just dang stubborn. There are many things we don’t agree on (like gays). I love how no matter how many times I talk to you about things you never change your mind. I love how you are so certain in your beliefs and ideals and nothing can shake you. I love how when I’m trying to explain something to you (like the L and M incident), I can say the EXACT SAME THING 20 times, and the 21st time I say it, you look at me and ask why I didn’t just say that in the beginning. I did.

6.     


You’re beautiful. You are sooo beautiful Nathallie. I can’t even describe how beautiful you are. I have never looked at you and not thought that you were beautiful. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. I wish you could see what I see. But I’ll give you a quick summary of what I see; I see a hopeful, energetic, loving, thoughtful, and overall wonderful young woman that I am so grateful to have in my life. And she is beautiful.

7.      You tell me everything. I love hearing about your life. I love that you trust me enough to tell me about your life. I love listening to you talk about what happened the day before and you asking me what I think you should do. I love you allowing me to be a part of your life and trusting me with everything. I love giving you advice. I love that you care enough to listen.

8.      Your smell. This one’s a little sentimental… but I love how you smell. I can hug you and still smell you on my clothes when I get home. I love it.

9.      Your eyes. When you’re happy your eyes sparkle. When you’re trying not to laugh about something, I can see it in your eyes. When something happens that hurts you and you pretend you don’t care, I see the truth in your eyes. Your eyes are beautiful and distinctive just like the rest of you. I already told you, Jacob Scott had a picture of just your eye on his phone (don’t know why) and when he asked me who it was, I immediately said “Nathallie.” I love your eyes; they tell me what is going on in that head of yours before you say anything.

10.  You love me. I love that I feel like I can tell you anything. I love that you actually want to hear what I have to say. I love that for some reason you think I’m a good person. I love that you care about me. 

11.  Everyone loves you. I love that you have so many friends. I love that so many people go to you with their problems because they love and trust you. And even though I get jealous, I love that your heart has so much room in it for so many people and so many friends. And I am so glad that there is a tiny corner of your heart for me.

12.  You’re forgetful. I love that look you get when you realized you left something at home or forgot you had to be somewhere. It’s pretty much guaranteed you’ll smack yourself on the forehead and say “oh crap! I forgot ________” I love how when you leave somewhere, I always check to be sure you didn’t leave anything, although many times you do. I love the look you get when I walk up to you and hand you something you forgot.

13.  You’re SUPER religious and devote. No, I am not atheist. I just love god in a different way than you. It absolutely drives me crazy when you start quoting the bible to me!! I know what the bible says! I just don’t think you should take it literally. It’s not 500AD anymore. But I still love your seemingly random references to God, even though they really annoy me.

14.  .I love that the life you have is so different from mine. I love that you love your family so much.

I love everything about you. When you love someone, it’s not despite their flaws and imperfections. It’s because of them. Including them. Well… I love you way more than you will EVER know and there is NOTHING I wouldn’t do for you. I will always be here for you. I’m so ridiculously glad you’re a part of my life. You are someone I will never forget or stop loving. I’ll just say it one more time… I LOVE YOU!!!!